today is one of those nights
when everything loses its meaning

one of those nights
where i stare at the ceiling
as if it might answer me
as if cracks in the paint
could form explanations

one of those nights
where i search for reasons
for justifications
for something that makes the ache make sense

one of those nights
where my heart keeps beating
but time refuses to move

where the world continues somewhere else
and i remain suspended
between thought and feeling

one of those nights
where i cry quietly
so quietly
even the dark does not notice

i swallow my words
let them dissolve behind closed lips
while my eyes slowly shut

not because i found peace
but because exhaustion
sometimes feels like mercy